~Our First~

Her dress is tight
Around her hips. I actually
Drop my glass when I see her.
She sees, walks across
On perfect legs, grabs a napkin
And goes straight
For my champagne stained groin.


I gasp and start back. Her eyes
Catch mine and she takes my hand.
Before I know it, she has me
Behind a fake plant and we're kissing.
I've never been kissed like this
My lips are all over the place.
She must be able to tell
I'm.....inexperienced.


We move to a restroom, lock the door
And her hands are on my waist,
And pulling at my shirt. I can't move
To touch her, I'm stock still with nerves.
I feel like a goldfish. Mouth open
And staring as she removes my shirt.
Finally, I find my hands on her breasts
And then I'm kissing her right back.


There's a chair, and she pushes me onto it.
Her dress is so easy to peel off
And now she's straddling me and the touch
Of her skin is driving me mad.
I'm hard and excited, she smiles,
Takes my cock in one hand
And slides herself onto it.


Oh god, I've never never
Felt anything so good. She sighs
And moves rhythmically, up and down,
Her hands on my shoulders, mine
On those wonderful hips. 'What's your name?'
She asks breathlessly. I tell her,
And find out why, when she moves faster
And starts calling it out.


I rise and rise on her cries
And moans, my cock is red hot
Plunging again and again into her
Until I explode with a sticky burst
Deep inside her body. Our bodies
Relax. My senses are reeling.
I can't believe this has just happened.
A thousand fireworks went off between us
And that was just our first.

~I Miss you!!!~

It seems the hands of time have frozen
The trees have stood still

The wind blows no more

Every second drags

And my heart continues to ache

I miss you so much!!

First your smile
Then your face

Those angelic eyes staring up at me

The smell of your skin

And the smell of your blonde hair

How we cuddle at night after a fight

How we walk holding hands our fingers intertwined

How you kiss my cheek when I least expect it

The feeling of your fingertips on my eyebrows

I miss the blush that creeps onto my face when you whisper those three words

I miss the bounce in your step when you’re with me

I feel empty when you are not around me

So I’m walking home consumed with sadness

On this day where everything has stood still

With a tear in my eye because you’re not here

I miss you so much

And to think

I miss you this much

When I left you at the bus stop five minutes ago.

~Bewilderment~

She's lost in a happy nightmare where all dreams come true
He's everything she ever wanted
and everything that ever haunted her
She's confussed and restless
estatic and anxious
Thinking yes and saying no
All she can see is dirty sunshine
And she's not sorry
but she can't stop apologizing
Though she made a promise
when she finally told the truth
but she lied enough
She sits waiting
worried about what will really happen
because she look when she wasn't supposed to
her feelings bleed out of the songs
that's why she doesn't sing anymore
The sleepless nights are her best
her mind races so fast but will never win
She's too lazy but she's off the wall
She's unchained but caged in
She's waited so long for this moment
and can't wait for it to be over
Her feelings run so deep they soon become shallow
She's lost inside but knows her way
She will be found but tries to hide
She will give in without a fight
She uses the "L" word without knowing the meaning
Soon she'll understand.

~Nightmare~

On my bed I lie,
Awakened, sweaty, scared & panting, by my fearful eyes,
Dark deep set and red,
The air feels calm like its the day of my demise,
It feels heavy but I lift my head,
I think I'm holding hands with Death,
I look at him in the eye,
Then I face at the sky,
The skies turn grey no one to be seen around,
I hear the screaming silence of argony,
It start to rain, background muted but i feel the cold drops poke my skin,
I feel time freeze and ask myself;
"What does it all mean?"
My body ascends, from the dark abyss,
I see a light ahead,
"Thou shall not fear no man but God..."
The words replay in my mind as I struggle the pangs of death,
My mind never found a place to rest,

Warm air suddenly fills my lungs through my nostrils,
Lying on my notepad is where I find myself;

I wake up from yet again another nightmare,

~Forever Misunderstood~

No one knows,
Not even ME,
How I feel within
I wish this feeling would go away & just let me be ME,
I sit in my silent room,
Sometimes, I just cry,
Thinking & wondering
What if i were to die?
Would anyone care?
Would anyone cry?
What would they say?
Would they give me a descent burial or just do me like a orphaned hound?
Would they come for my burial?
Or just turn away?
No one would care I guess,
I've tried to be ME,
The close ones take it personal,
Others have ignored me tried to change ME,
All they see is a smile,
Across my face,
Labeled me Socially awkward, Rude & Weird,
They don't see the darkness,
They don't see the light,
They don't know This Place,
They don't know this voice within me,
This damned feelings and crazy thoughts,
No one knows,
Maybe only me,
But my only wish is that they would answer my Plea.
"Only God can judge me"

~Miss Death~

I look at your face,

And Wonder what you want with me

'cause everyone wants something, no one hangs around for free

Your eyes ressemble an abyss , yet so sincere

And in your Mona Lisa smile I bask

As I wonder all the while

What's behind your pretty mask?

What's underneath,

This that you conceal... Angel, Spirit, Demon, Devil

Are you kind, angry, polite, vicious or just lost?

A brave heart or filled with fright?

And life is so confused

Its no wonder that the bulk of us are sure we have been abused,

So why don't you just cough it out

You can still whisper it, audibly to my ears full of life

Take of the guise that hides the truth,

Be honest just one time,

But the world is full of bullshit,

We all balance on the fence,

To risk a fall with honesty

I guess just makes no sense

But yet again I resfuse to go with you.

~What If ?~

What If...
I told you i saw things that you humans never see...
I watch myself sleep and hold conversations with my dead cousin,
Here voices that never exist, music that has never been made or written,
Would you still look at me the same way you do today?

What If...
I had dreams of shit before it happened and knew,
Knew more about the Bafomet than Jay-z or the late Amaru Tupac,
I've seen Heaven, Angels and got an inch close from seeing the face of God,
I can read minds...
Would you say am a weirdo or say that i'm a liar?

What If...
I am inhuman,
There is a world that i've been to and you will never see it,
Or if I told you my walls break I feel everyone around,
That i blow trees to feel a spec sane,
Would you hold sympathy, or call me a freak and kick me to the ground?

What If...
I told you these things I live with every second of everyday,
And no matter what I do or how hard I try they never go away,
I didn't know how pain feels like, the same with love till i found Nikki,
Would you take me to a mental hospital or term me a new age prophet?

What If...
I was from the unseen world i told you about,
I saw life forms unknown to man,

Would you ask questions and accept my explanation?

The look on your face tells me my thoughts were verified
I guessed you wouldn’t take my secrets well.