~Forever Misunderstood~

No one knows,
Not even ME,
How I feel within
I wish this feeling would go away & just let me be ME,
I sit in my silent room,
Sometimes, I just cry,
Thinking & wondering
What if i were to die?
Would anyone care?
Would anyone cry?
What would they say?
Would they give me a descent burial or just do me like a orphaned hound?
Would they come for my burial?
Or just turn away?
No one would care I guess,
I've tried to be ME,
The close ones take it personal,
Others have ignored me tried to change ME,
All they see is a smile,
Across my face,
Labeled me Socially awkward, Rude & Weird,
They don't see the darkness,
They don't see the light,
They don't know This Place,
They don't know this voice within me,
This damned feelings and crazy thoughts,
No one knows,
Maybe only me,
But my only wish is that they would answer my Plea.
"Only God can judge me"

~Miss Death~

I look at your face,

And Wonder what you want with me

'cause everyone wants something, no one hangs around for free

Your eyes ressemble an abyss , yet so sincere

And in your Mona Lisa smile I bask

As I wonder all the while

What's behind your pretty mask?

What's underneath,

This that you conceal... Angel, Spirit, Demon, Devil

Are you kind, angry, polite, vicious or just lost?

A brave heart or filled with fright?

And life is so confused

Its no wonder that the bulk of us are sure we have been abused,

So why don't you just cough it out

You can still whisper it, audibly to my ears full of life

Take of the guise that hides the truth,

Be honest just one time,

But the world is full of bullshit,

We all balance on the fence,

To risk a fall with honesty

I guess just makes no sense

But yet again I resfuse to go with you.

~What If ?~

What If...
I told you i saw things that you humans never see...
I watch myself sleep and hold conversations with my dead cousin,
Here voices that never exist, music that has never been made or written,
Would you still look at me the same way you do today?

What If...
I had dreams of shit before it happened and knew,
Knew more about the Bafomet than Jay-z or the late Amaru Tupac,
I've seen Heaven, Angels and got an inch close from seeing the face of God,
I can read minds...
Would you say am a weirdo or say that i'm a liar?

What If...
I am inhuman,
There is a world that i've been to and you will never see it,
Or if I told you my walls break I feel everyone around,
That i blow trees to feel a spec sane,
Would you hold sympathy, or call me a freak and kick me to the ground?

What If...
I told you these things I live with every second of everyday,
And no matter what I do or how hard I try they never go away,
I didn't know how pain feels like, the same with love till i found Nikki,
Would you take me to a mental hospital or term me a new age prophet?

What If...
I was from the unseen world i told you about,
I saw life forms unknown to man,

Would you ask questions and accept my explanation?

The look on your face tells me my thoughts were verified
I guessed you wouldn’t take my secrets well.