~Bewilderment~

She's lost in a happy nightmare where all dreams come true
He's everything she ever wanted
and everything that ever haunted her
She's confussed and restless
estatic and anxious
Thinking yes and saying no
All she can see is dirty sunshine
And she's not sorry
but she can't stop apologizing
Though she made a promise
when she finally told the truth
but she lied enough
She sits waiting
worried about what will really happen
because she look when she wasn't supposed to
her feelings bleed out of the songs
that's why she doesn't sing anymore
The sleepless nights are her best
her mind races so fast but will never win
She's too lazy but she's off the wall
She's unchained but caged in
She's waited so long for this moment
and can't wait for it to be over
Her feelings run so deep they soon become shallow
She's lost inside but knows her way
She will be found but tries to hide
She will give in without a fight
She uses the "L" word without knowing the meaning
Soon she'll understand.